Tuesday, June 05, 2007
wow.
i'm finally back (:
busy like a bee. tired and worn out but getting my rest (: holidays sure aren't like holidays..
mon, wed, fri. morning training afternoon physio.
had my annual HC camp.
emerge juz ended.
wow. activities packed week i had (:
looking back in time..... :D
30may, wed.
training in the morning doing the same sets of workouts as on monday. but this time without the bearwalk but with additional abdominal workouts and.... 15pull ups. o.O mr teo iz mad when he asked me to do that. i was stuck desperately at 6 singly done pull ups and after that i couldn't even pull up a slightest bit. arghhhhhh..!!! i felt so weak ): in the end cherly assissted me and i did like 9more den hurried off for 14th alpha HC last and final meeting.. geex. apparently this iz the only meeting after 1year in office that full attendance was reached. x) heh. sorry that!! every friday's meeting always have me on the absentee list. =P
yupp. so that's the end of it. physioed. home. tired.
31may, thursday. vesak day.
emerge day1!!!!! (: HCcamp day1.
well.. besides needing to wake up early like on mon wed.. it was okay. well the opening ceremony wasn't very grand in the morning.. and honestly it wasn't very smooth running.. ): but still!! like pastor kong says there's always room for mistakes.. we are all entitled to them (: and it's better to err in there than to make that major blunder outside. x)
well.. message was on the power of one. and although i've heard it before already. shamgar. but this time as i listened on.. what kept occuring into my mind iz what that i had once told bk. my injury my olevels. why should i even walk in fear instead of trying..? knowing that success should never be by my might but with God. i need that something that God can give to me to empower me to give me the strength the daringness, unrestrained by lack and inadequacy. the power of one. taking it step by step, one by one for the kingdom. but question iz.. am i willing.?
pst kong said it's hard to find one who's willing. as willing as he iz as willing as sun iz as willing as all the other pastors are. being able to rise up and step up iz not an easy task. in fact there's a major price to pay for that status. besides needing to be strong and firm in the foundation of Christ. there iz a constant threat for spiritual warfare. it's SOOOOO much bout relying on God for strength for help, no more on the people around. but the thing iz how nice would it be to be able to talk to God as a literal friend does. to sit by Him and listen to Him. laugh and cry with Him. how nice it would be. i shall keep the end reult in mind. =)
well after svc ended i rushed home and headed back to school. reported for HCcamp day1. well the juniors get yelled at continuously by the seniors(us).. and because of the junior's "not very smart"ness.. the seniors get punished together with the juniors. tsktsk. so far for not being a tekan camp. haha. we seniors get sabo-ed and tekan-ed as well.. zzz!!
well.. we went for dance concert as a whole HC that night. wow.. what can i say..???? dancers are simply hawtttttt (: hothothothotHOT!! (: waha. dance's got the grace the elegance the style the groove. watching them move to the beat of the music in such beauty juz increases the desire in me to wanna pick up dance. sigh. it was juz that easy to say at that time, "if only that could be me." (:
well after dance conert at NUS.. we trained down to kallang. and began our night walk. well alpha was so smart. our checkpoint was kallang mac. so we headed down there. and decided to camp there to EAT out supper. haha.. that took.... an additional hour odd before we headed back to school. in the end we reached school at like 0230AM..!!! and the way back had to be on a jog somemore.. zzz..!! by the time we slept it was 4AM.
1june, friday.
emerge day2. HCcamp day2.
i had to miss the whole day's worth of emerge ): but in exchange for amazing race and spending time with the juniors.. well i wouldn't say it was all worthwhile.. but it was good. being able to be around the juniors and enjoying it as they enjoy themselves. getting to know them better and seeing the way they work together. it iz definitely without a doubt that alpha iz now in safe hands. i'm really proud of the juniors i have. and it's needless to say. they're juz wonderful. (: all the best 15th alpha HC as well as the whole HC!! you guys will be bringing the future batch of alpha warriors up to the next level. pleaseeeeee dun follow our footsteps. i'm really glad that unity iz one of the factors that my alpha juniors have grasped really well. keep up the good work!! alpha iz and always will be outstanding. i want to believe that. (:
well although it was really dumb to allocate a dialouge session with the P in the middle of our rest time.. the night was alright. gamma had the programmes done. although the participation was only okay.. but as long as they had fun (: arvin came back!!! (: and i got to take a short ride from the front gate to the sports com in his car (: WHEEEEEEEE!!! so cOOl!! be envious!! =P haha. arvin looks so grown up already. geex. after i graduate from tjc will i look and dress juz as mature..? i need to go shopping :D but first i need to earn. that shall all be left for after A's to say (: well bentay came back too.. together with a handful other seniors. night group games was alright. as usual "awesome" team lead by trintiy like owned it all. haha x)
den had night pt.
hanging on the incline pull up bar. and doing those incline pull ups. - teaches endurance and determination.
sprawling over the cement wall - teaches teamwork and the need to support each other esp for those who are weaker.
running as a group - teaches teamwork and communication. the need to listen and do things together.
trinity carrying a member and running - teaches teamwork. the need to support the house cap. communication on areas which need more help. the need for encouragements.
and lastly the one we skipped..
the human wheelbarrow - teaches the importance of partnership.
last year when i was the one doing all these activities with my other team members.. i didn't feel the significance of it all. except maybe the sprawling of the wall. but this year.. all these activities seem to get at me. when last year i thought it was a waste of time and they should juz let us go sleep, this year we fought for it. we needed more time to get them to do these activities. by the time we finished night pt it was past midnight. den there was personal evaluation. where the juniors would pen down the strengths and weaknesses of their team mates. we could literally see some of them dozing off.. but it's understandable.. it was already 2+AM in the morning.. well.. after we sent them off to sleep the senior girls slept at the gallery. moving away from the stage where we camped the night before.
what can i say?? i'm really really really very proud of you guys, 15th alpha house com!!! (:
2june, saturday.
emerge day3. HCcamp day3.
morning pt at ecp. the juniors got wet. and so did the seniors. cuz we got pushed and thrown into the sea as well. haha x) well games by juniors was NOT unsuccessful because of alpha x) haha. we were happily playing the water as junior and senior. and attracted beta down as well.. and soon delta was in the water. haha.. soooo. oops!! haha. but i guess at least we had fun that's all that matters.
clean up lunched and had internal elections. posts were pretty obvious. tricky for a few and it definitely was a surprise that safwan chose DCP as second choice.. so we decided to let him have a go at it!! sooo.. here's the 15th alpha house committee for you (:
house capt. :
trinity
vice capt.(sports) :
zulaiha
vice capt.(non sports) :
teck kian
secretary :
julie
treasurer :
annabelle
logistics :
ashwin
sports capts. :
eileen
jaren
DCP :
meiyi
gelin
safwan
rushed to expo for service. reached there slightly past5 cuz of the queue outside. zzz. otherwise i would have been in the hall at 1650 already. haha. but nvm.. service was WOW. the performances the.... and oh my gosh.. liugenghong proposed to vivi in church during service!!!!!!!!!!! and of cuz she said yes (: haha. so sweeeeeeeeet!!! xing fu de ju li.. (: that was the song he sang. you know how nice it would be to have someone do that for you. sweet and if you dun feel loved or at least touched i muz say your heart iz cold la. x) den there was sun's birthday and the whole church sang a birthday song for her (: you could hear the shaky voice of both sun and pst kong. how appreciative and touched to tears they are. i'm proud of my elders in church. they are the real role models in church and i really love em very much. it was such a lovey dovey service. i really love lovey dovey services (: juz like the ones we had during the marriage seminars.
well.. service ended late. and my chest was really hurting very badly that night. went home. dead beat. ): i'm sorry i yelled at my dad and like didn't greet my grandparents and alll.. i feel bad. but i was really very tired. washed up and dozed off in bed without turning off my lights.
3june, sunday.
emerge day3.
woke up late so i couldn't make it for the first service. met debbie up for the second service. enjoyed it very much. esp the drama production.
"if only I could be her, if only i look like her. I want to be someone special just not me."
sounds familiar?? the constant thought that's fighting for your attention..? the need to be someone else but you.? the envy we all have within on someone else who's got it all.? it's in everyone. and i wont deny it's in me. but it's time to realise it's juz all bout being a better me not someone else. we are created uniquely us not someone else. we can be somebody in Christ. with Christ in us. we can be the light. enabled for a life greater in us, filled with vision and one that pierces the darkness within others. you know it would really be nice if we could be the ones who liven up the lifes of others. it would always be nice to have someone else be my light (:
had lunch and went for the finale. it was good. really great. well i shall confess that i cut queue!!! x) like went in to the toilet from one door and when the main door opened i came out from the other door of the toilet and joined the queue so near the start of the queue. so yeah. sorry!!
well finale. not so many happening events that happened during the service. but the message was powerful. juz before the service i was reading the harvest times. thank God for harvest times. well there was an article on the "poetry" sermon by Dr. AR Bernard. what really took me in was when he said whatever value you place on what you hear will determine it's power influence and impact on your life. i decided to let the service really speak to me. during the service i heard the past success in evangelism in history. den i heard the great grief in past kong at the failures of it. i was greived. if only if only if only. let not one moment past you by not doing anything. what if. no regrets i dun wan that.
that service i recommitted myself
eMErge. step by step. one by one.
i believe. i'll work on it. i need strength i need determination i need willpower i need to keep on keeping on.
it was a really high service for me. i felt like i was going crazy. i was happy. jumping for joy screaming despite my no voice. sigh.. if only emerge would come again (: but everyday can be an emerge too. that's without a doubt. didn't want to go home. so i stayed on with chia and jonathan to help clear up the hall. carey and gab left earlier. we helped to pick up those black connectors of the chairs stacked the chairs den moved on to collecting all the bottles on the floors.. den jonathan disappeared i tink to help with stuff in hall1. irin came with free BnJ ice cream (: we ate them up. gave half to jere cuz i couldn't take much cold stuff and that was his first time eating BnJ.. waha (: den at bout 1130 we left for home. together with jere after he finished his destruction.. haha.. eugene(the usher) and i boarded the 24 home, chia took another bus and jere taxied home. haha. and that was my day (:
on my way home i thought.
ms titans07. everything that God has put to my name, it's all by His Grace and because of His strength and help in times of need. God gave me that strength that willpower that determination that support to push on throughout the whole event. when muscles are reaching fatigue, God will put in me His strength. when i start to look back and think carefully, i remembered feeling His Presence with me as i ran that suicide shuttles. when by right my muscles would face it's toughest time i felt myself breeze through it. not by my might but with something additional. something unexplainable. something wonderful. something unconditional. i'm ordinary with an extraordinary God. (:
4june, monday.
training was a killer. slept late at 2 the previous night. went for training tired. sorry for worrying you big guy JoN!!!! well.. training mr teo made me do those interval sets with 10seconds less rest each set ): means 20secs sprint and 30secs rest ): i died. and i tink cuz of the lack of rest the previous night.. my chest started to hurt really really bad ): esp during the second set of 16 i did ): i found it really hard to breathe and each breath was wheezing ): and my right quad was really too tight ): training ended earlier. so chester and i went to bedok lib for a while. i tried to study gp. but i couldn't help but keep dozing off. so i juz went to sleep after reading ONE article. chester bugged me to go home to sleep and not go for physio.
but i headed down. when i reached. fauzi and edmund said i looked really tired. and pauline realy asked me to give today's physio a miss and go home sleep cuz in my tired state i wouldn't be able to do much either. i didn't want to.. but i thought bout the tiredness the chest pain the muscle ache.... i decided maybe today i should be happy i was chased home. sigh. for the first time in my life that i heard a physio chasing a patient home. so i came home slept for 3half deep hours. dinnered. headed down to kovan to do a little math and take back my phone from kenneth and came home.
5june, tuesday. today.
had sufficient sleep for the day. but eating still hurts when swallowing and it has those kind of feeling as if i'm eating too fast and yaaaa even though i was eating quite normal paced. hmmm.
time to head out to study (: and den i'm gonna catch shrek3 with my mum (:
i cant help but love my mum sooooooooo much (: i always get dates out with her x)
*throbs @12:27 <3
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